so far
After a long 10 hour flight we have finally arrived in the Netherlands.
Words cannot even describe how i feel, well i had a lot of time to think about it on the plane but i just feel at peace. My moms sister (my aunt) passed away suddently last january and that is mostly the reason we are here. It just didn’t seem right to let my uncle and the kids be alone at this time.
My great aunts from Bosnia arrived a couple of hours ago and my uncle (dads brother) and aunt came to see us as well. My uncle is my hero, he fought in the war that occured in the balkans. He got shot on his left arm and he can barely move it and every time i look at him my heart just gets warm. He is such a gentle soul, so caring and loving and it pains me what he had to go through.
My aunt passed away on January 14 so this saturday will mark the anniversary of that. Everyone is going to be over here to pay their respects. I think the first week is going to be really rough and emotional but i am really happy i came because i don’t think i could have let my mom go alone. I’ve been here so many times but it is obviously different this time, it is a different kind of trip.
The house looks exactly the same except my aunt is not here and there are memories of here all over the house. It’s going to be a pretty rough week but nonetheless i am so happy im here. I just feel so familiar with everything here, it’s not home but it feels like home.
I always find i feel better after i write things out, its really nice at the house everyone is talking about my aunt and just talking about great memories. I just feel better releasing things instead of keeping them bottled up inside.
That’s my day so far. going to catch up on sleep and simmer off that bosnian coffee.
Night.
+tagged as: vacation. netherlands. family. holland. bosnia.
